Current location:	work
Current mood:	depressed

Nothing good
"Yeah, no one said life was easy..... But no one said that's nothing's supposed to happen right. No one told me anything...."

Suicide is more appealing than ever. My so-called best friend has stopped talking to me again, leaving me even more depressed and unable to control tears. I cry almost anywhere now. Bus, work, walking down the street. My other two friends spend all of their time together, and besides I have nothing to give but negativity anyways. I told Henock I'm thinking of moving to Calagary, but I'm really just in need of support and I know he can't give it. But affection and hot sex are nice subsitutes. I'm scared to make a commitment with this huge lack of trust. I still think he's been cheating, but will I ever find better? Likely not, so I might as well settle.

I can't do this anymore. I'm going to do something drastic.